July 2019 TBR

I don’t have a good history with TBRs. I never stick to them or I choose too many books and set myself up to fail before I even begin reading for the month.

This month however, I’m feeling overwhelmed with reading choices. As a project to keep myself busy on the first day Pepper and I were home alone all day after Jason’s death I entered all of my physical books on to my to be read shelf on Goodreads and there are just over 600 of them.

I am also having trouble making decision since Jason’s death. I can’t think straight most of the time because the grief is so overwhelming.

With Pepper’s help we chose a few prompts from my tbr jar and I ended up with 2 books I had already started before July began and 6 books to hopefully start and finish in July.

I let her choose prompts and I chose the books to fullfill them until I had enough books to need to read 50 pages a day to finish them this month. And then I remembered to add a book I was already reading to the list and ended up needing to read 57 pages a day. So I’ll see how this goes. I like looking at the small stack of books I hope to finish this month. It simplifies things for me a bit for me and this month I really need that.

July is my father law’s birthday and it’s also my late husband’s birthday. And my husband’s family will be in from all over the country this week. They were hoping to arrive before his death, but missed him by three and a half weeks. It’s going to be a hard month all around I think.

The two books I was reading when July began were

  1. Daisy Jones and the Six by Taylor Jenkins Reid
  2. Grief Day by Day by Jan Warner

The prompts and books chosen from the tbr jar are:

  1. 5 Star Prediction- Beartown by Fredrik Backman
  2. Shortest Book- How to Make Big Bucks from big Blogs by Brandon Colker
  3. Blue- Where’d You Go Bernadette? by Maria Semple
  4. Sequel- Above by Jason Chabot

The book I chose to read from my July 2018 haul revisit was:

  1. Fingertip of the Tongue by Sarah Rice

The only other book I have plans to read this month is From Scratch by Tembi Locke. It was sent by a follower and I look forward to reading it, but can’t handle too many grief books at once right now. So I need to finish Grief Day by Day first and then will begin this one.  Thank you again for thinking of me and my sweet Pepper, Kristin!

This may be way too ambitious considering I only finished 2 books in May and 2 books in June, but I also need some simple decision to be made for me. Reading is the best distraction for me right now while everything is so hard. I’ve also been up in the night due to nightmares about my husband and reading is one of the only things I can do that won’t wake Pepper up as well.

Even if I don’t finish them all, I hope to read some good books this month.

What do you plan to read in July?

5 thoughts on “July 2019 TBR

  1. Hi, don’t be too hard on yourself if you find it hard to finish things. I’m a heavy reader and find solace in it, but when my dad passed I found I couldn’t focus enough to read and found it very frustrating. That’s when I bought my very first computer. Maybe try things in little bites until you’re more steady. I hope you and Pepper have a wonderful 4th of July, as best you can.

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  2. Hi. Maybe it was me but I avoided grief books. Probably a mistake. I thought I was protecting son,probably only shielding myself from reality. Now I’ve started looking at them. For me it’s coming up to 3 years and I probably can focus on them better. Looking back I was barely functioning for the first few months.

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    1. For me books are my thing. I turn to books first for most things. Recipes, relationship trouble, parenting issues, so it was totally natural for me to cling to books first. We had a four month build up to my husband’s death so we prepared our four year old with books on grief and death before he died and then could focus on my own grief work afterwards. I’ve finished two books this month that will have reviews up in August that are on grief. One fiction and one nonfiction. I highly recommend Grief Day by Day by Jan Warner. It was invaluable to me these first couple of months. A book I ordered but haven’t received yet was recommended by my grief counselor to help me help my daughter. It should be arriving this week and is The Grieving Child by Helen Fitzgerald. That book is for the parent to read. She has another one he recommends that is for teens. He said my Pepper might be ready for that one sooner rather than later. I’m so sorry you’ve suffered such a loss too. Internet hugs are being sent your way.


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