I was a little too ambitious with my July TBR it seems. I had planned to read 8 books this month. So far I have finished just one, Daisy Jones & the Six.
I’m on page 302 out of 415 in Beartown by Fredrik Backman. I hate to say I’m enjoying reading a book about a rape, but Backman’s writing always pulls me in. The words and phrases are so beautiful I can’t help but be enthralled in the story. I don’t have high hopes for how poor Maya is going to get through this ordeal, but I’m hoping to finish it up soon and find out.
I am also still reading Grief Day by Day by Jan Warner. For this book I am on page 146 out of 258. I want to finish this book and move on to some others, but I can only take so much wallowing in one sitting. For the most part I try not to think about my Jason at all. My grief counselor wants me to try and focus on him and let the tears come at least once a day for about 10 minutes and then I can go back to being distracted. To be honest, I haven’t made it to 10 full minutes of crying in one go. I am apparently an expert in distraction and never knew it. That title always went to my husband. He was forever not listening to what I was saying to him. We called him Distraco Boy as a joke. And when Pepper was born he called her his sidekick distracto baby. We found out later that he had ADHD and that gave him some comfort. Grief Day by Day is a good book. One I will probably buy a copy of for my local library. It is broken down in to weekly subjects and each day has a quote and little bit about the author’s story of losing her husband. This is the first thing that has made me feel understood since my husband died.
The third book I’m currently in the middle of is Evicted: Poverty and Profit in the American City by Matthew Desmond. I am reading this on my phone and I am 43% in to it. I started it when my husband’s family was in from all over the country for a week long visit. I needed something to keep me distracted from the emotional trauma of seeing all of them for the first time without my husband by my side. If felt rude to pull a physical book from my bag, but if I’m reading a book on my phone it looks as if I’m checking an email or scrolling facebook like everyone else did from time to time. This is about people being evicted from their homes in the poorest neighborhoods of Milwaukee. It’s heartbreaking, but an engaging read that is working great in small doses for me when I need a bit more distraction than a phone game can provide me.
I’m hoping to wrap all of these up in the next few days so I can begin a new set of books. There is still a bit of time left in the month to make a dent in that TBR I set.